Why I Blog...again.

(If you're new to Whatever My Lot, please read My Story Here and Part 2 here.)

Just a reminder. For myself and my readers. This picture shows the blankets, teddy bears, and memory boxes that we brought home from the hospital two years ago. I opened them tonight to remember.

This is why I blog. And, two years later, this is why I blog again. Because...

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

~Casting Crowns


I blog because it still hurts. And because there are so many others hurting out there. Sometimes writing is a way to remind myself and others that God offers hope. And peace. Especially peace.

I don't intend to simply relive the past again and again. I want to always remember. But we are looking forward. I'm so thankful for the short time I had with my girls. I blog for them. For Joanna. For Rita. And I blog for so many many many others.

The following was written today, for a dear friend. Thinking of you today.